Friday, December 4, 2009 ♥
Dear bloggy,It is 03:10 am and I am still awake... U can say I am semi concious.. but I just cant make myself sleep... Once I off my laptop.. N my eyes will be wide awake... So yea I decided to write something in this blog...Yesterday I got to know where I am going to be posted to for PRCP... I get into a Geron ward again... I got my first choice... GERONTOLOGY... hehes... Im not sure why but I was freaking happy XD... I hope the environment and routine is similar to my previous ward 7A...Ready or not ready... The time wont stop for me... I have to go through this and try my best...Jia You to the others... We shall pass together..insyallah :)3 more days of hols.... and stress stress stress here I come...hehes...Can I ask you something... Issit a must to love someone who loves you?I dunnoe what am I feeling right now... Pity or Love or just Playing around....I used to think... It's best for me... to stay away frm him...I don't even know whether he really loves me or not...Even if he loves me... Love fades right... Especially if you love someone like me...Sometimes......I really wish.. that he could just go away and forget about me...But I know...I will be sad by his absence...I know getting rid of him is not the best solution...It is my fault to let him into my life back...Time cant be turned back right?& it is definitely wrong to play with ppls' heart..I dunnoe why... I just cant be satisfied...Im always not contented...I have someone who have been loving me for so long no matter wat...But I still doubt his feelings...He is different...He is not like 'him' ( name shud never be mentioned ever ever)..But.... I still feel.....I deserve better... :pwadever... Enuf of my sick bloody hell feelings.. Screw his feelings towards me..Love will not last forever... it FADES sooner or later... N i cant hold on to him or anyone..I have to be independant....No matter wad...I cant rely my life on a man...But.. no matter which angle I see in this so called relationship... It will never be perfect...Like my life ever gonna be perfect...
Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, December 04, 2009
