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Sunday, November 29, 2009 ♥

Dear bloggy..

I wanna say FINALLY HOME SWEET HOME.. have been away frm the hse way tooo long already...

Ucu's wedding was a joyful success... Finally, she gt married and end her single life... hmm... But I totally hate wen ppl say it is going to be my turn next -_____- Marriage is not something i wanna go thru ever in my life.... Coz there will be soo much responsibilities and so much problems... Marriage is not like a bed of roses... It is pretty much like a ship and it's crew..U need to have a very good captain and a good team of crews in order to sail that ship... If not.. You will easily crashed down by a storm or any other obstacles the sea has..... It is not easy as it looks... Nevertheless... wedding is pretty much an exciting experience... Gosh.... my aunt was very gorgeous yesterday... Like a hot freak,,, N im glad i didnt screw up yesterday... was the freaking bride's maid... Haiz.. but kinda sad though coz Shiqin cant be there.. She gt a dance competition.. We are suppose to wear the cute dresses my aunt bought for us yesterday... n I was wearing it alone... -___- sad... But yea... ppl keep commenting on how small i was beside my brother... I hate those kinda comments... cant ppl ever fucking shut up!!! It's not that I want to be like this.... I dunnoe why I am getting smaller ok!! so fuck you!!! N wats wrong about being short? Issit a sin or sumthin... Stp it sak all ths ppl....LOL wat am i saying... ppl cant really shut up cant they.. Ppl will always keep on commenting wadever they feel like... Without thinking of other ppls' feeling.... Well fuck them anyways,,, I had fun,,, the hotel was damn nice... Feels like a holiday... at some other country.... Haiz... When can I have a real holiday? Hopefully after PRCP... :)

Aites... tts all... PEACE OUT MFs!!

Screaming my thoughts out @ Sunday, November 29, 2009

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 ♥

Dear blogggy...

This is what I have been doing the whole day... Studying... LOL.. It seems that studying will never end.. Like for example, I wanna find out bout this stuff... but later I have to find out about something else that is related to the initial stuff tt I am suppose to learn about.. Its pretty much interlink... but... I enjoyed today... I am happy coz I get to do wat i wanna do today coz im a big fuck of a procrastinator...hehes... It is like an achievement to me... But yea... more studying means more snacking... pffttt gotta watch my diet.... I always wanna go for a day of starvation... but in the end.. the more i think of starvation the more i feel like eating.... haha.... maybe i shud think of being full all the time... Meh... me fat... me skinny... who fucking give an ass rat anyways.. hehes... it is fun to be single ... ~weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Lucy and nizz are missed and loved lots :)

Thanks for your time in meeting us last friday nizz...

N Lucy... meet up soon biatch..

Hugs & Kisses

With lots of Xcore fucking love,SHIDA

Screaming my thoughts out @ Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Friday, November 20, 2009 ♥

Watched 2012 with Lucy and Niz today... I hate it.... It suck... waste of money... waste of tym.. end of story -______________-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, November 20, 2009

Thursday, November 19, 2009 ♥

Dear bloggy

I am happy to say that I passed my recent posting... Thank god... But I know... I need a hell lot of improvement... Today will be my HSE posting... Im reaching to the end of my posting... With a heavy heart.. I am leaving the ward that I have worked in for a month.... But Ive gained a lot of knowledge frm tt ward... From the staff... U know what... the whole 1 month 2 weeks... All Ive been talking bout, all Ive am thinking about is all about nursing... Yea I am stress..... It seems that Imma carry out so much responsibilities in the future... but I am up for it... This is it... there's no turning back... Imma just go for it... Im glad that I ve gained frens during my postings.. They have helped me a lot.. In a lot of ways... H has somehow motivated me in a way... Sumitra have bring joy in the entire posting for me... pretty much i guess it will be dull without her... & yea sze huey too... Pretty much they make me feel that I am not goin thru this roller coster of emotions alone... They are in my shoes too and they understand how stress it is... I thank all of you for helping me... May u guys be happy with ur PRCP posting and hopefully we will meet again someday :)

-Peace out yo-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Thursday, November 19, 2009

Sunday, November 15, 2009 ♥

Dear bloggy...

I've just got home from my grandma's place... Ate a lot today.. usually I will only eat like 2 meals per day.... But today I ate 5 meals per day.... Imagine how much Ive ate today... Im such a freak... But I swear... I am not concern about eating a lil too much than my usual diet... errrrr.. maybe a little..... Ok... actually.. I am planning not to eat a single solid food for the next 3 days... freaky.... but.... yea... I dun wanna ever be fat... no way.... No offense... but being fat is just soooooooooooo .... undescribable....I mean having fat on me... For those who are fat.... yea.. If u are comfortable with what u are... Then cool... but for me.. If I am fat imma kill myself... LOL... Im ugly... So i cant be fat and ugly at the same time right? That would be just .... gross....But wat I know... I am not suffering frm any eating disorder......I have a goal..Which is to reach 43 kg by the end of the year... So yea baby.. losing more wt... My current wt is 46kg.... so 3 more kg... 3 more pathetic kg...

CAnt wait for the hols to start again....I wanna relax my mind.... N do some studying for PRCP...
hmm... I wonder why.. ppl like me.... Have not quit yet... Whereas.. some ppl.... who have passion in this course... or seem to have.... just quit 3/4 way.... I am not strong..... Dun ever tell me that I am strong.... Maybe its cause im fated to be..... Well... I heard ppl quit this course during PRCP too... will I be one of them???? I hope not.... Even though he is no longer a fren to me... His werds will always be in my mind... The future is not for us to predict.... It's true.... Wat I can do is.... To learn frm my mistakes and gain knowledge and do my best.... Think bout now... stop worrying bout the future....May god be with me... So that I can always do the right things.... :)

During the last hols, Sastra got me stuck on One Piece anime.... And I make Lucy get stuck on it after that... she tagged me this photo in FB and make me Luffy... She is Chopper the cute little reindeer there.... NOTE TO LUCY : PLS NOBODY CAN BE CHOPPER BUT ME :p

XDXD... gosh... i cant believe that I am stuck on cartoon at this kinda age... but yea... this anime have brought me joy..... the characters are just soooo adorable.... So yea anyone who is soo damn down or have a lousy day... this anime wud definitely cheer u guys up... and yea

One more photo... that make me go LOL just now... tagged by Lucy....

And yea of all the ppl... she make me tt old woman in front there.... pfft and make nizzy the moustache guy... kekek per...hahahahhahaah.... siallah lucy ni confirm kau amek dari kau nyek family album kau kn... Ni kaum kerabat kau siul... must respect... lain kali jgn cium tgn.. cium kaki skali... LOL...Nabeh kau :p Anyways... i miss you fucking lots.... lets make passionate love in a dark squeezy closet tml aites...hehes...

Aites.. enuf crap for now...

-peace out-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Sunday, November 15, 2009

Thursday, November 12, 2009 ♥

Pretty unexpected that Fidah and Wendy came to TTSH today to fetch me after my work... LOLs... Well Fidah have msged me actually that they are coming.. it is just that I was working and didnt really check my msges... Sumitra, Sze Huey and me have planned to watch My sister's keeper today after work... So after we've changed Sze huey told me tt Fidah called her phone.. probably searching for me but cudnt get me... So I checked my phone.. And yea I've realized they reached TTSH already... So sweet of them... Pretty much their presence have made my day :) So I bring them along to Orchard... Had lunch.. and tried to make them watch the movie with us... Fidah finally joined us...but Wendy have to meet her BF.. hmm nvm aites babe we will hang out soon :) Gosh the movie suck... Not sad at all.... Maybe being a nurse make my heart so cold... That death and suffering frm a disease is just ....nothing..... Ive seen worst cases.... at least the girl in tt movie have a family tt care for her until the day tt she died... but some ppl.. Just suffer and die alone... They have children but none visited them... No one to talk to.... Some couldnt even communicate anymore... Suffering the pain in silent... I pity them.... Seriously.... Movies cant be as sad as wad is happening in real situation... Tts y I am here still holding on to this semi profession....But I am afraid that I might not hold on much longer....

Ok,Back to TODAY....LOLs

ORCHARD... gosh... It is filled with beautiful lights and christmas tree... Very very attractive surrounding seriously.. Just feel like tonning there for the whole night..... But to bad we cant :(

SAD!!! hehes

Xmas tree at Orchard

And yea US!!!!!

I had fun girls.... :)

But most of all.... The person who had made my day is FIDAH... haiz... we cant really see each other everyday anymore... but there is this saying in mly... JAUH DI MATE DEKAT DIHATI...hahas babe u are loved :p

Aites.. Adios :)

-PEACE OUT-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Thursday, November 12, 2009

Sunday, November 8, 2009 ♥

Yesterday has been a cool day... Went out with Lucy and Asswipe.. celebrated Asswipe's bday... XD was fun...My stress has gone for a moment... But even it was for a moment... I am content :) I have never laughed like yesterday.. for a long time... well at least for this week... hehes.... Lucy keep talking bout MANHHOOD.. like stop it sak Lucy...Stop being a perv XDXD... And asswipe just cant stop being a chikopek...We are soo the tak senonoh... but hey... we are just having a bit of fun... Just to seek a bit of happiness... we went to Bugis to eat.. and siallah... The laksa was awesome.... I want more more more more!! grrrr!!!! well today I ate like a pig... So plan for the whole next week --> STARVATION!! ahahahahz.... Wish I can rewind back today over and over again..... Coz.. I dun want this weekend to end :( hehehes.. but too bad... time will never stop for me... sad per...

A birthday cake frm me and Lucy after we main dgn apek tu nyek MANHOOD

to get the cake tau! LOL :p

Hope u like tt cake.. coz we werk hard for it :p LOL

Its the least we cud do XD

Then we went to Vivo... Tt is,after we went shopping with Lucy at Orchard... -________- LOL Penat per gi shopping ngan Lucy...... kaki gue sakit sih sampai skarg XDXD

I miss yall soo much... hopefully to meet u guys again soon... And have a great laugh tgt... Well... Drugs can cure almost any sickness... But laughter is always the best medicine... It is definitely PRICELESS hehes...

Adios freaks....

-Peace out-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Sunday, November 08, 2009