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Sunday, August 30, 2009 ♥




U know elephant use their trunks to carry heavy objects, To suck in water or wadver other stuff only god knows what it is.. They can also use that trunk to punch ur face silly....



But I didn't know that they will use their trunk to do this:





Credits to my bestie for sending me this pic..


Which is now my dp in my MSN.. ^^


Cool ey... They use the trunk to actual fuck..... Fascinating.... 0_0


Look at the smile of this elephant face...

Had fun? I bet u did....

I have realized one thing bout animal and human beings......

Animals can do sex openly in the wild... With people watching... Its normal..Its their nature

but if human beings do that kinda thing in public ..... And expecially at places when it is obviously can be seen by people.... Its just sooooo wrong.....

Having sex indoors and in private is what makes us different from animals....

And by ppl having sex where ppl can see.... Make them no different from an animal...

And they are only attracting Voyeurs like me....LOL

-_-

ok gtg go now...

Posting again later... with much more nonsence -_-




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Screaming my thoughts out @ Sunday, August 30, 2009





On last Friday,






Me and Fidah watched this movie:




Esther Esther...


What's wrong with Esther...


Well it was a cool movie actually..


If u love some suspense


&


Pshychotic serial killer movie...


Completely disturbing...


Esther draws porn in her bedroom....

Disturbing aint it

Esher draws porn of her and her dad

More Disturbing...


I draw porn and give it to my bestie as her bday present...

An info that ppl no need to know..

Its just gross XD



Anyways... I've nothing to do.. as usual, me and my insomnia nights.... haiz.. curses!!... But nvm..


Im used to it already....


The one who is sleeping is Esther's so called sister..

Esther is an adopted child in this movie...

So this cute adorable kid down here is deaf...

And she communicate with her family

Using sign langugaes..

Pretty cool :)

Well after that movie, I started to have this certain interest in Sign Languages... I mean.. They are freaking cool... No doubt.... So I have spent an hour just now.. to learn the alphabets and numbers till 1-10... It is quite easy... Plus give my fingers a hell of an exercise... And they are aching actually right now -_-

I saw this kiddish video at you tube too sum up what I have learn...

So let me take you back to nursery or kindergarden...

Lets learn ABC..

Sign Language style

How bout that yo!






And actually if U have master all the alphabets... What I was told was told you can actually make up words out of those alphabets.... Like these as examples




&






It's actually quite fun learning this sign language.... Meh.. Hu knows.. It can come in handy in the future... ^^

Btw..

I just had ramly burger just now... Taste not really nice... Accidentally took chicken...

--> NOTE TO SELF: If taste food that is weird tasting... check the food... not just continue eating like a hungry ghost...

NVM..

ON monday... I will buy the meat burger Ramli... to satisfy my lust on Ramly punyer burger...

Today I've watched The last house on the left..... Kinda cool.... But really not as awesome as Orphan..

That show really rocks my vagina...

-Peace out yo-

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Screaming my thoughts out @ Sunday, August 30, 2009

Saturday, August 29, 2009 ♥

Im craving for Ramly's burger right now.....

*DROOLS*

I want burger ramly now now now now now now!!!

Hey Ramly... make me some of ur burger lah... i want to eat u know!!

How u make ur burger damn delicious ar...Ehk Ramly I wanna know...

Hey deyy make me one burger ramly with extra yeggg lah deyy..

I want to sapedekyoukepalepundekmaire

Haiyoyo..-_-

There is one time

I go to this Ramly burger stall...

Walowei!! Service damn bad... at one of the baazar at north lah

Customer diri kat depan tak tau amek order..

Customer must shout for order...

The person make customer wait so loong...

Person give wrong order...

Customer must wait for the correct order... -_-

-_________________________________-

Customer pon bleh tido tunggu order

ZzZzzzZzZzzZzzZz

XD

Tapi ramly burger is always sedap!...

Cumer jgn beli lagi kat abg tu!!

dier besar punyek *&%#@$%#$@*&%&@$*

IM bored...

Yey today's mummy's birthday!!!

LOL a year older ... :p

Presents? Wait next year lah hor... When I werk...

Then I will give u anything u want mummy love...

*Hugs* *Hugs*

May god make ur life happy and joyful...

I will try to make u happy too....

And dun worry... u aint hearing no more trouble shiat frm me...

:)

-Peace out yo-


Screaming my thoughts out @ Saturday, August 29, 2009

Friday, August 28, 2009 ♥

Mums are the most wonderful , the strongest and the most loving people in the world… They would go through anything for the sake of their children… Just to see a smile on their kids face she would sacrifice anything….

They have never asked anything in return… And it’s their children responsibility when they grow up to take care of them…. In which some neglect…

Forgetting where they came from. They forget who have been taking care of them since young.. Who have tolerated their shits.. Who are the ones who have given them everything…Love, Food and shelter, education… They are the one who have shape us to be people with manners and dignity…

There’s one time

When a mum who has been waiting for her daughter at the MRT station platform since morning till afternoon to go to someone’s funeral… No phone… Worried…. “Where is my daughter?”

Asking a phone from a stranger.. Feeling pitiful to that old lady… The stranger gave the phone to her…. The lady called her daughter… &What did she get…. A huge scolding from her daughter…. Just because that old lady waited at the wrong MRT station… That old lady was like begging her daughter not to leave her to go to that place alone… Cause she dunnoe how to go there… She was almost crying for god sake! Wouldn’t it be better if that daughter fetch her frm her house and go to that place together.. Well at least don’t scold her until like that… The daughter slammed the phone after shouting something to her… And the old lady have to ask the stranger’s permission again to call her daughter .. Probably the daughter slammed the phone half way of the conversation… Siallah.. she waited for u since morning.. and u give her one big hell of a fucking attitude… like wtf!!!! But end up… The daughter ask her to go down at the actual mrt station and she will be waiting for her mum there… The stranger didn’t know what happen to the lady after that.. The face of that old lady… The stranger could never forget.. Pity her… May god always protect her.. from her evil tigress daughter…

N haven’t you realize… The people who sell tissues on the streets are mostly elderly… Pity this one old lady… she was sitting on the floor selling tissues one day… her face ..cant forget her face.. So pleasant.. So pitiful… So tired.. How can her kids let her sell tissues on the streets?? Dun tell me that she chose and planned that when she is old she wants to make a living by selling tissues… MY ASS!!! Maybe she have no family.. or her kids are just too fuck up to even bother bout her… Shud have seen her…Then u will get what I mean.. Feel like bringing her back home..

I really hope that I wont be like those kids who do that kinda thing to my own parents… Sometimes…. People do change after they get power and the ability to stand up on their own feet.. Their salary is damn high.. They can proudly say “ Whatever money u spend on me.. I can pay u everything back now” with arrogance on her face… talking to her parents… & I really hope I am not one of them… But think of the bright side.. Im just gonna be a nurse… hmm.. My salary? Haha will take a lifetime of hard ass work to payback everything I owe -_-

Anyways…From these stories… The point that I want to bring out is… Don’t ever ill treat your parents… Even if they were not the best parents … But they have raised you since you are young… Be happy that they are still living.. Some kids don’t even have parents… they don’t feel the love like we do… And we being so priviledged.. Haven’t been thankful… Every time mum nag.. “WISH MY MUM IS DEAD!!” “WHY DIDNT SHE ABORT ME IF I ONLY LIVE TO BE NAGGED & SCOLD BY HER…”
And all other nonsensical remarks… Which sometimes I would say.. LOL…

But my mum.. even though not the perfect mum in the whole entire world.. But I can't think of anyone else to replace her... She,who have planned my future … Organized in a file with various dividers…LOLs,, From school till marriage ( in which I don’t want to.. but I cant possibly tell her..shhhh) .. And planned how much of my salary I should give her.. when I work… and lots more.. I shall not mention..If not this post will never end… But I guess… Thanks to her planning… U know.. at least I have something to achieve in life… At first.. It started off with something that she wants and I have to fulfill it.. But as time passed..I feel that… actually I want this... I guess without her strict guidance… I would be nothing…
She was the one who motivates continue my education and to never give up.. And she makes me feel I am playing a big role in this family.. I have a sense of purpose in life.. N I really want to fulfil her wishes... before I die of some stress causing cancer.. LOL... Me and my fantasy of how I wish I could die... Cancer would be a cool thing.. just joking...


Aites.. tts all aites...

- CHIAOX-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, August 28, 2009

Thursday, August 27, 2009 ♥

Today paper was hard....

But I did my best....

N I am hoping for the best...

*praying really hard*

Well I know someone who say never study but end up doing her paper confidently...

That person whom I dun wanna mention anymore in my whole entire life.....

Im glad I am no more a 0720 moron...

N im glad... that I have completed my academic modules in NYP....

*Praying hard hard hard.. NOt to have supp..or even repeat module..I have enuf..pls...*

But I know this is just the beginning of a new journey for me... And I can't wait to know

What is up for me in the future... N no doubt.. imma do my best.. and shall never give up..

Cause I know I can't predict the future... And anything could happen...

Miracle do happen...N i've realize hard work does pays off...

& u know what...

Imma stay positive...

I don't wanna be the depressed pathetic loser that I was...

What's the use anyways.... Being pathetic does not solve any problem....

Imma try to stand on my own feet...

I want to prove that I can be independant...

N I no need a freaking dude to rule my life.... and tell me what to do...

Cause they can kiss my freaking feet...

Fuck them anyways



Anyways....After my exam today... I went to break my fast with Fidah who is sweet enuf to

pretend to

fast just cause she want to break fast with me.....

We're Accompanied by the 2 craziest monkies in the whole entire universe...

No doubt they are insultive and vulgar ppl... But they made my day... seriously...

They are soooo freaking funny....N I am happy for Fidah to have friends like them...

Cause they appreciate their friends... unlike some asshole I know....

fuck that bitch....

Me and Fidah made a wish on a lucky stick... well lucky stick which is actually a cigg....

Funny huh...

Ppl wish upon the stars but we wish upon a cigg stick... LOL...

Well.. wadever.... XD

Kiwi and and Turtle have to go...

& me and Fidah continue to hunt for more food... To staisfy our LUST... on food...



The Briyani at the woodlands bazaar was fantastic !! and so as the kebab.. maybe cause we are

freakin hungry ....if u give us stones and put a bit of ketchup or chilli sauce we probably wud eat

it.... But dun give us pork pls huh... that is for the H1N1 ppl.... Who wipe their asses with tissues


but when they wanna sit at the MRT bench , need to wipe lah... or sit at the very edge lah...


Eh clean ur backside properly first lah ok!!


N look at the way they eat... OMG... so ugly... Like never eat for 10 years like that....

Especially when they are eating their favourite food... Pork something something.... -_-

Wadever... 0_0

Aites thats it for today... Blog again soon... chiaox

Screaming my thoughts out @ Thursday, August 27, 2009

Tuesday, August 25, 2009 ♥

My life is empty without u....... Food......

I miss the time munching u in every break time....

I miss u being there for me in my every depressed moments

Feeling you.. Smelling you and tasting you.......

I wish we could be together always....

But too bad we can't.....Only at certain times that we can meet ... sad :(

GOSH IM MISERABLE!!!!!!!!!!!

But nvm....


for god sake...



I shall fast..


XD


Gosh im stressed out...


Haiz... Pfft.. Pftt..


AN 5 suck balls can????


pass? supp paper???


But one thing.... I know..I have tried my best :)


pls Allah.. give me a miracle.. I hate supp paper.. :(

I have to pass.... Have no choice but to pass :(

Screaming my thoughts out @ Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Friday, August 21, 2009 ♥

It's been 2 days straight I am having my exams...
Today.. at the exam hall.... A one hour paper...was freaking retarded...

The lecturer announced that students can start writing already....
Like 20 mins later, Wei Jie raised up his hand....
He asked the stupidest question ever...

True.. I find that question weird too... The options are not the exact answer should be... But I just chose the option which is close to the correct answer should be.. And MOVE ON... BUT NOT THIS DEAR BOY


The question is something like; put the correct way of communication in the correct sequence... and they were 4 different options... But the options were weird.. None of the sequence is correct.. Frm what the lecture notes have written..

It was suppose to be situation first, followed by background, followed by assessment, followed by recommendation...if u combine the front letters together it creates somethig like SBAR..But none of the options were put in that sequence...

But this dear boy... Was a freak.. He asked the lecturer whether the question is correct or wrong... Then the lecturer said... Yes.. it should be correct.. He argued with the lecturer.. And end up practically saying the answer loudly... He was like " OH but from what we learn its suppose to be like this........" he keep saying "SBAR", "SBAR", "SBAR" FOR FUCK SAKE!!!! STOP SAYING OUT THE ANSWER!!! he was pretty loud... and he is freaking lucky he is not disqualified from the examination.. And becoz of him the lecturer have to go to the front and announced to the whole bunch that the question have nothing wrong with it....

Was laughing at him.. in my heart of course.. wad an idiot!!!.. LOL LOL LOL... but god was angry.. and punished me for laughing at weijie and keep calling him a moron in my heart while doing the paper...My pen dried out of ink half way... CURSES!!!! HAIZ.... then slowly shaking the pen and doing my essay... and u know what.. by the end of the day.. I am the moron... I didnt read the instructions properly.. Suppose to answer 1 question only for the essay bt I went to answer 2.. imagine with a almost dead pen doin 2 essays... i was like saying "subhanallah" quite loudly when I saw that instruction and take a pencil and cancel the first essay.. and pretty much the ppl around me look at me like I am some kinda psychotic freak talking to myself... and I was like "STOP CREATING ATTENTION TO URSELF BITCH!" and smiled to myself... CURSES!!! lol.... It was a freaking one hour paper.. & I am glad it is over.... I went of the examination hall with a full bladder... Having the freakiest urge to urine... Haiz... CURSES!!!!... XD


ANYWAYS.. THANKS FIDAH FOR ACCOMPANYING ME UNTIL THE SPORTS HALL... PRETTY MUCH U BOOST UP MY CONFIDENCE.. & FINALLY I DID STEP INTO THAT EXAM HALL... AFTER A FEW EPISODES OF HESITATIONS.....
U'RE SUCH A DARL.





SOCIO


MANAGEMENT


AN4


AN5


AN3


3 more exams to go.... CANT WAIT FOR IT TO BE OVER!!!! EXAM IS KILLING ME!!!!!!!...

Anyways before I end this post.. I wanna say....

To all muslims.. SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN.... puase jgn tak puase tau!!! Banyak lah membuat ibadah dalam bulan puase ini.. JAUHKAN DIRI DARIPADA PERBUATAN MAKSIAT!!!!!!!INGAT TUHAN SELALU AKAN MELIHAT PERLAKUAN KAMU SEMUA.. mwahahaha...


-peace yo-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, August 21, 2009

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 ♥

Why must freaking guys exist in this world..

Where are all the nice, unsuperficial, respectful, sincere & romantic guys go to?

Definitely not in Singapore I assume.... -_-

I have this hatred towards men....

I dunnoe why...

The stories I'v heard about them and the experience in a relationship with men..

Makes me feel... HAving a man in my life just ain't worth it....

Majority.. not all... men go for looks and looks .. and looks....

But can good looks stay forever?

Then how about the heart?...I've seen alot of girls with good hearts...

But men reject them cause they are not good looking...

But in the end, can good looks determine a good and long lasting relationship?

What if the girl has good looks but have the worst of attitude and charactheristic ..

Would you think that relationship will last?

Oh.. I forgt.. MEN... only go for sex.. so they dun give a damn bout what is inside...

JUst pure lust...

So...if that girl have lost her beauty... You will just leave her?

Like duhh... No doubt....

Those men... are not men.. but they are just dogs...

They shud be shot in the head.. have their body parts chop off starting frm their private parts

And throw those body parts to the crocodiles.. in the zoo..

Guys always discriminate girls who are fat...

See fat girl... Called them a cow... For god sake!!!

Look yourself at the mirror...

Their hearts are damn prettier than ur freaking face....

Can't stand ugly guys...

They are not perfect in their looks but want a gorgeous babe to be their lover..

Oh please step nk ader standard konon... loser MF...

Padehal... Siallah.. My foot and my necrotic toe is much more cuter than ur face lah seh...

Some guys promise they wont do this and that as they claim tt they are respectful guys.. They are not into this kinda hanky panky shit....

But in the end... They do everything... That are totally opposite of what they say...

GUess.. they are only good with saying promises... but never keeping it...

U know wat , superficial sex maniac guys deserve to die a miserable death....

I curse them to have permanent erectile dysfucntion for the rest of their lives...

So as they could never enjoy the pleasure of having sex anymore...

So as they wont destroy any innocent girl's virginity & dignity...

Those animals deserve to rot in hell...


Well another random post.... A subject about men.. that me and Fidah have discussed during our studying tgt aka lesbian session tgt today.... and we agreed on one thing... MEN ARE PIGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

ONly look at the outside never in the inside.... And pretty much we have been heart broken due to this superficial men...Well once we've got a stable job and money... Why in the hell we wanna look for a man to marry.. Bloody hell... we can support our own finance.. And screw those men whom we sheded our tears for... Cause i know one day... we are gonna laugh at our stupidity.. crying for a man.. Aint worth it at all....

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Screaming my thoughts out @ Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Monday, August 17, 2009 ♥






Having a break while studying again... Found these vids while searching for MAD TV shows in youtube to relieve my stress... Stuart really made my day today :) He make me laugh my ass out... :D

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Screaming my thoughts out @ Monday, August 17, 2009

Friday, August 14, 2009 ♥

I wanted to have a nice afternoon nap... Coz my head is aching for no reason... Well.. no worries its normal.. Im a diseased freak... Every part of my body will ache for no reason... Haiz... Well let me continue.. was wanting and yearning for a nice afternoon slp wen Su Hua msged me saying tt Miss Cheah havent received our assignement on management... Fuck tt bitch sial... Ive sent already ok.. Its in my SENT ITEMS for god sake.. ask her to dig her on fucking grave...See lah... Want to send H/W via email konon... CB... Then last min say havent receive..Might as well she make us print the H/W and give it to her personally kan?what nonsence... Haiz Haiz.... my 20 percent you know!!! grrrr!!! Exam is a pain in the ass.... I have to depend on my ICAs and assignments to pull up my points... cause i gt a feeling imma suck... Pfft... but wadever.... I dunnoe whther I have hope to pass.. And I'm scared... I have to pass no matter wat -_- And Im just at diploma level... Imagine if I am taking a degree.. I will commit suicide sial.... fuck fuck fuck.... Anyways...... Gotta start studying soon... Gotta clear my mind... 0_0 Pfft.. Might as well die right.. no need to think about a thing anymore... ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!

*sigh* *sigh* and more *sighssssssss*

-Peace out yo-

P.S Thanks Laiying for spotting my admin card...Im such a careless freak.. And thanks Yus for keeping it for me... May god bless u guys... Pfft.. since when im into this blessing shiat....

byes.....



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Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, August 14, 2009

Thursday, August 13, 2009 ♥

I had a massive menses cramp yesterday and cudnt sleep the whole night and end up waking up late... My lesson had ended already by the time I woke up.. Im fucking pissed.. but wadever....
Hang with Lucy the whole day.... Slept at her house... Making up the sleeping time I've wasted...
Just started studying today.... But pfft... My brain just don't want to absorb anymore infos.. So Ive stopped.... Hopefully tml my brain dun play cb with me and absorb more infos....
Okie gotta go to sleep.... Imma study agaiin in sch tml..... IDC... will be rotting in school at 8 am or 9am... Meh, see what time I wake up..

Lesson starts at 1pm.. So I am literally will be rotting in school tml... NO life.... XD okies... Gotta go to bed.... ~toodles ~

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Screaming my thoughts out @ Thursday, August 13, 2009

Monday, August 10, 2009 ♥

Just finished with my assignment on Management..Sent too Miss Cheah already.. but dunnoe whether I should print a hard copy just in case... Hmm.. I want my 20 percent ICA marks OK!!
Cant afford to loose any marks...Anyways gonna start studying tml.. Had a terrible headache today... Can't get infos to my head.. so whatever...

Hmm no mood to study but have the mood to browse around some shit websites... I saw this love poem while browsing through the net.... Yea a love poem... Im so out of love.... But I like this poem.... Direct and full of emotion... There is no need to analyze or read in between the line like those poems I was forced to read during literature lesson back in secondary school... Oh those miserable days.... XD


The poem goes like this:

Tear drops from my face falls into the palms of my hands
I thought he was my true friend until I fell for him and made him my man
Trust is no longer a factor 'cause all you do is lie to me
I want to let you go as a man but not as a friend so I cry myself to sleep
Love, trust, and respect is what I had for you through it all
The love is still there
The trust is dead and respect broken down
If we would have just been friends would it had been so different?
I've built my emotional walls back up
My heart has to keep it's distances
I'm tired of crying over you and feeling so confused
My friends tell me "Now girl you already know what you need to do"
But I can't let him go
My heart says We're still not through
I'm torn between the lies and the truth
And yet I still want to be with you
If you were me what would you do?
The tears that I shed over you
when I feel that you just don't care
Only hurts so much because when you need me I'm there
I know I have to move on without you here by my side
But then I think back and doubt if I'm really that strong
why have I let people play with my mind this long
and I still haven't moved on
Maybe because no matter what we've gone through
I finally know with you is where I belong........
Moving on.....
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Hmm... Shall I go to school tml...Shall I not... Im so bored stepping to NYP...... Im sick of it..SHIDA just 3 more weeks... and no more sch... tt is if i dun fail any modules.... haizzzzzzzzz..
May Allah bless my life...Amin...

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Screaming my thoughts out @ Monday, August 10, 2009


Today is the day I will start to study.... N i can't hardly wait for the 6 weeks holiday.... In which I will be engross in books and more studying... There's no more time to play around anymore.It's time to enter the adult world of boredom and working till you drop....

Anyways.. I've found a note in my room...Was supposed to be inside a heart box a fren once gave it to me...I probably have thrown it out coz I want to use the heart box for props in my role play.... It was a note from F... F wrote:

Dear Syah,
Haha, nice to be the same ICA group as you. Don't be discourage by
what people say about your skills(: You are good in both attitude towards nursing :D
Must study hard and graduate tgt(:
* Don't skip class!
Your sincerely,F
But too bad.. that friendship didn't last very long.. Hmm.. No doubt we still do talk... And those times with her can be rather funny... But those can only be memories.... Graduate tgt would be fun if we were as close as last time... But now...... Graduating tgt meant nothing no more.... But no doubt.. I will miss F...
Moving on.....Friends were gained.. & Friends were lossed along the way..... It's like that.....
But the friend that I wouldn't want to loose at all is that someone who will be there for me no matter what..Who can tolerate my weird charactheristics and wont be pissed at me even if I showed the uglliest attitude to her..... N u know hu u are.... I love you babe....

Screaming my thoughts out @ Monday, August 10, 2009

Saturday, August 8, 2009 ♥





I have deleted my facebook cause ppl tagged me with ridiculous photo of me in FYP.... pfft....


Go get a life ppl!!....



Anyways...... There are some photos I saved... Just a memory of FYP..


Its pretty much about an anti smoking campaign



Our theme is on


Save Money Save Health














The mascotts of the day SU HUA AND PETER

Pity them have to walk around the canteen with such ridiculous look





Me and Sze Huey.. Waiting for the next skit




This is my lecturer on my right.... who mke us repeat the sex scene for 3 times!! :3The chubbiest cute girl in my class...Someone with a great heart , Charmaine



The class photo ( The FYP leader tt I have mentioned all this while is the one lying at the front row)




Miss Au says after graduation... We are going to go through this stage where we will be mourning... CAuse we will be seperated frm one another... To tell u the truth...



I dont think I will even mourn ... I will be happier... to leave this class instead...



Like I say... This class never give me happiness.. or any joy...



Just humiliation and sadness....



I feel damn outcast to be in this class.... Im sorry I have to say this...


BUT FUCK 0720!!!!!






Fidah Darl will always be missed.... The one who stood by me for this 3 years...



The person who made me feel like im not alone in this class...





I would be lying If I say I dont miss some ppl in the class...




Fidah will be missed....



Wei Xiao, Su Hua, Hong Yu and Peter & Charmaine.. Will always be there..



Whenever I need help.... The most approachable ppl in class...And the sweetest



No doubt



Yus (a better leader than tt butch cud ever be!!! ) & Safiah....



The most reliable ppl in the class....












Screaming my thoughts out @ Saturday, August 08, 2009


5th of August 2009...

The death of my pride and dignity :(


Tt stupid lecturer of mine is the one who is responsible for this shit...

Smoking causes Erectile Dysfunction...

Its true....

But the percentage of it is LOW....

Yes.. it can make a great impact for men to stop smoking....

Come on men LOVE SEX...

and not being able to do tt...

Can make them go crazy....

BUT FUCK IT!!!!!!!!...

She dont have to make us do the sex scene A LOT OF TIME

To emphasise that smoking causes erectile dysfucntion!!!!!!!

Because of that skit.. i guess.... I have lost my libido to do sex in the future.....


Shall bury it together with my dignity and pride....

RIP

To Shida's

Pride,dignity and Libido

27-12-1990 - 5 August 2009



Pfft.......

But FYP ends tt day....

WADEVER BITCH move on!!!

haiz haiz haiz....

Exam is in like 2 weeks time...

Havent started on any revisions...

Nursing management assignment havent start yet...

Im a goner....

aint giving up though ......

STUDY BITCH!! STUDY!!

BE a nurse like wat ur mum wants u to be...

be a miserable fuck....

If u are lucky enough...

U will grow old and be leaving alone with plenty of cats to accompany u in ur death bed....

LOL...

Sounds like a freaking sadist bitch huh....

Okie gotta stop over reacting....

No matter what I gotta pass with a better GPA than last sem...

I got 2!! I got 2!!

N I guess being a nurse ain't tt bad.....

N im glad FYP finally ended.... Even if I have to humiliate myself and will be traumatized

in doing sex in the future.... But I really thank everyone who have helped the role play group...


I love Yall so much..... And I still hate the FYP leader... SHE SUCK VAGINA!!!!!!

ok * breathes in* and *breathes out*

Continue:

So now....


Moving on to another problem... And solving it... :)

HAnding in assignment on time

*Study for exam is a big challenge!! *


EXAM.. hope I dun screw up...

TTSH posting for a month on A&E , OT and Geron

*PRCP* I will be stressing, crying, and wanting to commit suicide no doubt about it.... SYED!!
need ur words of encouragment at this time!!!!!!

BEING A NURSE ... lagi more STRESSSS!!!!!!

lol... i guess i have to face all this like a woman!!

Even if I am not ready to be a nurse...

I shall endure and learn....

I really hope to see the light by the end of the tunnel soon. :)


Okies... gues i gtg bath.... before people starts coming to my house.....

To asswipe: Cheer ups aites.... U will be the popular asswipe who will always get hot gals to date & definitely have alot of frens to hang out with in the future.. NS sucks... but just hang in there......


Before I end this post.. I just gotta say something....

What is the use of having a lot of friends... When none of them were true to u....
What is the use of having a lot of friends... when not even one of them wanna be ur best fren.....But what is use of having best friends.... when U cant even trust them.......

~PeAce~








Screaming my thoughts out @ Saturday, August 08, 2009

Monday, August 3, 2009 ♥

Today.. Had the weirdest thought ever.... When I was leaving the house.. and down the stairs.. I just wished tt he would be waiting for me down stairs... Waiting for me with a bouquet of flowers... as a sign of apologies... XDXD.... But as expected no one was waiting for me.... Continue dreaming... Cause tt thing would not happen to me.... I ain't worth it I guess... The people who are worth wating for are gorgeous people.. Not an ugly fuck girl like me.. Shame on me to expect such a thing... LOL....Shedding tears for no reason.... Having reality smacked on the face is pretty much hurtful... And there is no such thing as a dream can become a reality... Not for a person like me.....

Screaming my thoughts out @ Monday, August 03, 2009


Dear bloggy I did a personality test... Which somewhat... Describes myself... Accurately.... Well not a hundred percent though.. But fair enuf... Here are the results:



Your view on yourself:



You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. ( Yea I am an efficiant problem solver... Have been cracking my head all these while)


The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. ( I will do anything for tt guy..But tt guy will never do anything for me. Conclusion: No need a love life!)


Your readiness to commit to a relationship

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. ( Gosh.. Will I ever meet the right person?? Just feel like wanting to be single!!)




The seriousness of your love

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. ( I use to have dates alright...Not plenty though..Im an ugly fuck.. Most guys I've dated will end up being JERKS!!!!!!)


Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. ( True.. can't depend on guys to support me!)


The right job for you

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. ( I'm studying to be a nurse..That's stable..But not a job I want to spend my whole life doing..)


How do you view success

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. ( Hahaz... gone through ups and downs.. But yea Im still ain't giving up just yet..WORKING TOWARDS SUCCESS YO!)


What are you most afraid of

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. ( DEFNITELY TRUE! Anger plus vulgarities)


Who is your true self

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust ( 100 percent true.. No doubt bout this)

If u guys wanna try this quiz...

Go this website
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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

I dunnoe whether the result is accurate for u... But no harm trying..

=)

-Byes-

Screaming my thoughts out @ Monday, August 03, 2009

Sunday, August 2, 2009 ♥

Was at www.stomp.com.sg just now... Pretty much it is a website that contain issues that are happening in Singapore.. Some random pics were taken..For example couples being caught having sex in outdoor in broad daylight... And the person who took the photo will talk about it... And the other people who are registered to that website can leave comments on that kinda bahaviour.. GET THE PICTURE?

There is one issue that caught my interest the most.. & I guess I have to bring this issue here.. It's about this couple... They were seen talking rather loudly at first....

but then .. Later.. They guy start to put his hands underneath the girl's shirt and tried to go up to the girl's breast...

The girl took her bag and try to cover her chest area... The guy realized that she was uncomfortable about it and try to talk to her...

& continued by putting his hands underneath the girl's top from behind trying to undo the girl's bra....

The girl hesitated but didn't know how to turn the guy down and stop the guy from disgracing her infront of the public...

And nobody helped her.. Not even the guy infront of the couple.. There were a lot of people in the train... But no one helped her... there are MEN in the train.. but none of those MEN helped her!!!!

The person who wrote bout this issue was the one who yelled at him to stop...But OMG.. Nobody else want to help.. They just stared at what the guy did to that poor girl.. Like a free show.. I can imagine the whole thing clearly... What happen to these people nowadays? A girl being molested.. & everyone ignored? The girl couldn't scream for help cause that was probably her BF or sumthin..& she dont want her BF to get into trouble or wadever shiat..I dunnoe whats her freaking reason...

But what do they need a red carpet? An invitation to help tt poor girl... Maybe these people don't know when to MIND THEIR OWN BUSSINESS and when to GIVE HELP TO THE PEOPLE IN NEED.. Bless tt persn who have helped that girl.. Watsup with MEN anyways... Can they wait until they are in a private place to do that? Do they even think of their girlfriend's pride and modesty when they do all that shit stuff in the public... GUYS ARE SO DESPISABLE!!!!! They do not think with their brain but with THEIR PENIS...

Anyways take a look at that website and read the issues being brought up... Some are interesting.. But some are just LAME.....

~ ADIOS~

Screaming my thoughts out @ Sunday, August 02, 2009

Saturday, August 1, 2009 ♥





LOLs... Just plain emo-ing...



Anyways..I had fun today... I really do.... But I dunnoe why... There is still a part of me... Still feeling sad....

Grrr.... What is the hell is wrong wth me!!





Anyways... finally met Asswipe again after a loooooooong time.... Freaking miss him like hell..

Went out of Lucy and Asswipe today.. Went to watch HANGOVER... SO FREAKING FUNNY CAN? Every freaking part of it is funny lah.. Its like about 4 guys having a bachelor party at Vegas but the worst thing they woke up the next day not remembering what they did the day before... Its like DUDE WHERE'S MY CAR... but this is more freaking funny.. especially when this dude make a baby wank himself..like WTF... A good movie to relieve all your stress and just Laugh your freaking ass out!!!




Then we went to Marina Square to eat Nasi Ayam Penyek... Walaowei.. pedas nak mampos seh... But nice.. But too bad we missed the fireworks.. hmm.. Not really lah nampak sikit2 ajelah.. but pretty much the fireworks aint that big fuck of a deal... The big deal is to be with my dear friends.. lepas tu kiter lepak2..Tak igt rumah langsong.. Come on who does? Kalau boleh nak overnight at that place.. But what to do...





I & Lucy rushed back home... Cause we dont want to be nagged at by our mummies...

But even if we were going to get the nag of our lives.. It is all worth it...

We need 2 have fFont sizeun once in a while.. Or not we gonna turn extreme crazy...

Ok .. Pretty much..That's all....




& Oh yea




We manage to survive a day without ciggarette...Isn't that cool.... I really wish to quit smoking..
WHy smoke when you can just chill? XD



But whenever Im stress.. I just keep smoking.... Gotta have a substitute 4 ciggarette...But what can be a perfect substitute for it?????? hmmmmm....*thinking and thinking*

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> :0 ZzzzzzzzzzzZZZzzzzzzzzzZZZZzz...

Hehes...




& yea one more thing.......I wanna say...





LUCY AND ASSWIPE ARE LOVED... *HUGS* *HUGS*








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Wasting time while waiting for the movie.....





See Lucy.. Her rules : B4 eat, must pose first....

I want to eat nasi ayam penyek again sia....Next time we eat again okies??

Hehes...

-Chiaox-


Screaming my thoughts out @ Saturday, August 01, 2009


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