Tuesday, March 31, 2009 ♥
Just finished watchin ANTM... i know i shud be in bed but i dun really feel like sleeping.... Today was sort of panicky... Have this moment where i did an oral toilet for one of my patient... and as i was cleaning... she suddenly coughed like really badly.. and her pupil is like goin up... and I feel like as if she is goin to die or something.... I sat her up and pad her back... and quickly call the staff... Wen the staff gt there... phew... she is alive and breathing normally... maybe i panic for no reason... but... I dunnoe..Just got the feeling tt the patient goin to go off soon.... Just that I dont want her to die infront of me.... Please.... then i will get traumatised.....And definitely on the spot to quit this course once and for all.... god, pls help her... she had been tortured enough....She aint goin to get better anyways.... I guess... The family would not want to do an operation for her... saying stuff like she's old... and its kinda too late... and I heard she only left a month to live... All we can do right now... is just to provide her with comfort.... I just wish...I cud do more for her ya know.... Anyways tml start a brand new day in a male cubicle..... sianzzz....nvm..jia you!!!! 4 more days baby!!
Screaming my thoughts out @ Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009 ♥
she better hold him tight and give him all her love...Look in those beautiful eyes, and knows she 's cause...He is the reaosn for e teardrops on my guitar...The onlyThing that keeps me wishin on a wishin star.... He's the song in the car ...I keep singing...Don'y know why I do......currently addicted to this song...Thanks to CHRISTIE...XDXDXD.............................................................................................................................
~ Lalalala~It's still dark..... CRAP!!Anyways...... Hear me out....People who come and go...are not friends...They are just fake mother fuckers...And people who just go MIA and suddenly just appear are inside that category...And yea one more thing ...whats the point of missing someone when tt person dun even miss you
I despise ppl like that..and they aint worth my time....
Screaming my thoughts out @ Saturday, March 28, 2009
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Here I am in my dark room..N dont even ask why it's dark... XD.... spent the whole day ZzzZZ today...but still, I am feeling tired right now...XDXDXD.... one more week... Jia you! went to meet my Lucy just now for breakfast.... Walao...so long never see her.... Brought my bro along too...As usual... being an older sibling, I cant just think of myself...So brought him along to eat at Mc... We talked crap and coot coot behind my bro's back, Me and Lucy... Just like old times..... Next sunday is her Bday....What shall I buy for her...hmm... but wadever it is.... It shall be something sweet :P... we are afterall, the sweetest lesbo couple ever XD
Screaming my thoughts out @ Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009 ♥
Just woke up from my evening nap... Im pretty much tired..went to sleep at about 3am yesterday and woke up at 5:30am.....The lecturer was in our shift...damn sian.... I took a case today and pass report...damn cool man.... hahaz...but if I have to become a nurse right....passing report wont be as fun anymore...The more i see it... I think im goin to be super stress if I become a nurse...but pretty much....i cant really predict my future... So What I have to do is just to think bout now..Bout how I am goin to go through this last week..But wadever it is... i am just gonna do wat i can do.... and pray hard....Seriously speaking....I dun feel anything...just want this posting to be over..cant wait for the 2 week hols....
Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, March 27, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009 ♥
Today has been a tirin day as usual.... tml im taking case yo...lol hope i will do a good job.... work ends at 3 today....Morning shift is not that busy today...but still i felt soo tired... me and christie changed cause we meeting fren later... wahpiangeh... wait for her like waiting for Xmas like that..lol...just kiddin... i look like fuck can? i just look tired nowadays...and dun really eat normally... maybe im just too stressed with everything that has been goin on.... but wadever it is... i will go through it and hopefully succeed..lols.... Met my fren at city hall... we hang at CQ... wah shiok man the place.... kinda place tt someone who get fuck up in a ward would really appreciate to be at..Thanks ahmad...lol...i felt freakin weak wen otw home...and i suddenly gt headache... damn suck.... mum was sick just now again... me and my dad took care of her...walao...i was so tired tt i almost gave her 2 tab of famotidine instead of one...damn fuck man..luckily she realise that....or not her gastric level in a stomach will be damn low..... gosh how careless of me...thats y... i say i must be more alert.... haiz sian.... anyways.... talkin to lucy right now...i miss her man... wen to meet up seh.... maybe soon lah babes... imyvvm...XD
Screaming my thoughts out @ Thursday, March 26, 2009
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I have realize that I have neglected what's happening around me.... I need to be more alert and be more responsible.... SHIDA'S new goal.... to be more responsible!!!!! its a must must must.....I have to learn to be an adult... and learn to stand on my own feet.... cause no one there is goin to help me but me.... Its time for me to change
Screaming my thoughts out @ Thursday, March 26, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009 ♥
Cant sleep tonight...Seems that my eyes just couldnt really shut...I hope nothing happens to mum....She is at the ANE department at SGH... at 9:45 pm... I got back home..just got to know my mum was in pain ....She cant move ger right knee...Eyes filled with tears....I was like OMG.... never seen her like thta before....gosh.... kinda feel like crying too ya know... but cant cry then.. something got to be done right?... I grab some painkillers and let her eat em.... Me and my dad persuaded her to go to the hospital..Cause there is nothing else we could do at that point of time...We cant possibly let her suffer the whole night.... She really dont want to go... but still we just reassure that everything will be fine..and she finally agreed... Ambulance came 10 mins later... And the medics are fuckin irritating keep askin my mum the same question..."WHERE IS THE PAIN"... FUCK the pain is at the kneee assholes...haiz... anyways... they did a good job in tranferring my mum from the sofa...Called dad a few mins ago..he went to follow mum...he said have to wait for 2 hours at the A&E....I think mum will be alright... JUst that I pity her to have gone throught that kind of pain...with tears in her eyes....kinda give me the heeby jeebies..ya know... aites then..... Granny ask me n my lil bro to sleep at her house...but gosh i think I am grown up enough to take care of my bro...Besides... He is sleeping now... I wish I could follow mum there... Better yet..take all her pain....Aites then...i end my post here...byes
Screaming my thoughts out @ Sunday, March 22, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 ♥
Went out with Fidah today... After a fucked up day at the ward.... It was fun.. even though I was tired.. It has been 3 weeks since we've met... we hugged like lesbos and talk like lil small giggly girls.... i kinda missed tt.. ya know....I have been serious towards everything... its time for me to chill.... We went to chinatown... cause she and her frens wanted to find a job at a restaurant at Chinatown.... So much for a restaurant... Its a fuck up one...N i have no more comment... Fidah didnt want to work there...N i definitely agree with her.... the restaurant was untidy,old and furthermore, it is place at a certain isolated corner... like wth.... then we went to vivo and chill and smoke.. not fidah but me..hees.. aites i know i have to stop.. but i cant... i am too stress....Wanted to meet Lucy.. but I was tooo exhausted and my legs were killing me... besides mum wud not be happy about me goin back home late....Sorry bby....Fidah told me she had a dream tt wendy and me wud talk again.....Fidah dear....I had that kinda dreams tonnes of time before and it feels real man..... As time past... I've realised that I cant expect my best fren to be perfect.. they are human being anyways...I am not a perfect fren too.... I sometimes offended my friends but they still except me for who I am...I am just being selfish.... But I know its kinda too late to fix things up...... i dunnoe how to make things right anymore..... I guess its the time for me to treasure those frens i had....I've always say that all I wanted to be is to be alone.... But to tell ya the truth... Sometimes i do feel scared to face everything by myself..... I need my love ones to be with me.... I gotta treasure everyone i love and not to take them for granted....This is wad i have got to sayN oh ya....My patient passed away today..It was expected......but still i dun expect to see her dead body during my shift N actually I didnt know she passed away till i go next to her body...Gosh..... My fault to go in...before listening to any report......Give me the heeby jeebies wen i stood by her and realised she's deadIt like just yesterday I nursed her...Talk to her as if she is concious...n now shes gonebut i think its best for her..At least its the end of her suffering..Rest well madam aites.....
Screaming my thoughts out @ Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 ♥
Its been a long tym since i blogged.... Pretty much my hands are too lazy to write... but... still i dont have th heart to delete thi blog... today is my second day of attachment... Those two days were freakin busy.... But tml I will try to make up time to do my case study.. Cant really wait to take up cases... im excited... but still lack of confidence.... but i hope the lecturer and the staff will guide me through... To tell you the truth... I dont really like the ward... There are too many foreign nurses... and they keep on talking their language.... so irritating....ooooh just cant wait for this attachment to end.... anyways... results have come out finally.... thank god i passed... yea! No need to takeany supp papers.... n im a year 3 now baby... and soon to graduate.. hopefully.... cant wait to work and earn my own money... Cant wait to spend my hard earn money... N yea BRANDED STUFF ARE LOVED XD..... aites... thats bout it.... crapping soon... chiaox....
Screaming my thoughts out @ Tuesday, March 17, 2009
