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Saturday, October 24, 2009 ♥

Dear bloggy..

2 weeks have past so quickly... My OT and ED postings have ended.... MOre and more burden have been lifted off my shoulders... But I missed ED though... That posting have taught me alot..
It have enabled me to practice my skills and also help me to have a bit more speed in doin my werk...
Its a wonderful experience and I love all the nursing officers there... They are super nice... Esp Sister Norresah... Those sisters have never scolded their staff... I assume that all the nice NOs and nurses are group in ED.... and left the nasty ones at the wards.. LOL... well... Gerontology.. here I come :)

I've decided as for today onwards... I shall not be in any relationship with anyone...
I cant say for life... As in for now... My love right now is for my family and frens... They are the most important ppl in my life right now... N i want to be always be there for them.. And make them happy all the time for as long as I live... I want to be successful one day... I want stand on my own feet.. I dun wanna depend on anyone anymore... I wanna be independant... besides....
It wud take a long time for my heart to heal in order to go into a serious relationship with anyone... But wadever it is... I always hoping for a happy life for myself in the future.... I've realized that My life is filled with hardships... But after every hardship... God have given me some kinda happiness and satisfaction .... Doesnt matter the hardship im facing now... cause I know My hardwork will pay off soon... Just gotta hold on...

Thanks to my close frens who have been there for me... To listen to all my probs... They were the ones who have been giving me support all this while..Telling me not to giv up and stuff... I guess... god is definitely fair... N i wanna thank him for giving me such good frens.... :)

Underneath the misery.. I found a bit of happiness here and there.... N im happy to be living till today... To prove that I am worth something... N wanna prove that I can be a better person each day :)

Screaming my thoughts out @ Saturday, October 24, 2009

Friday, October 9, 2009 ♥

~ Dear bloggy..

Im tired but I couldn't fall asleep... So i guess imma talk crap here for a while...

I wanna change my mindset about guys.. But sumhow... I really can't.... Why most guys are just jerks? Why cudn't they respect us girls? & Why can't they just respect the frenship they have with girls?

Some guys just wanna be frens just to fuck.. Have u heard of "frens with benefit" before another name for sex partner or a "fren" whom u can fuck to satisfy ur lust ..-__-

Some guys.. who have been frens with their girl fren for soo long frm pri sch and end up telling her that he wanna fuck her.. aint tt stupid? What is frenship to them? Obviously they dunnoe what frenship really is.... Frens respect one another.. help one another..Care for one another..Giving motivations to one another...True frens will go thru ups and downs with us together & know their limitations ....

To me.. girls shud be respected & guys shud protect girls instead of destroying their lives... Even though some girls dont wish to be respected.... But most girls do want to be respected but didnt get the respect tt they want frm guys...

I guess the world is going to an end.... LOLs...

BUt wadever it is.. girls shud take care of themselves and not to be fooled by man's sweet talks..

Men are good at making empty promises... & break them like as if those promises meant nothing.... When the girl is holding to tt promise n hoping he will keep it... A girl's heart is very fragile... No matter how tough they wanna be in the outside... Once it is broken... It's gonna take a long time to fix it.... No matter how much woman try to put on a strong face.... She cant really deny that she is very sad ... Cause of a man's cruel doings to her...

So girls have to be strong too...In order to be respected.. we gotta show tt we are worth being respected... No one is worthless in this world unless they think they are worthless... Value ur pride and dignity and never let anyone take it away frm u... Men will be men... We cant really change them.. So we gotta be stronger than them... Cant easily give in...We must not let them do whatever they want to us...

LOL... ok ... enuf for today...

Anyways today was pretty much fun... Actually today was awesome... I get to vent my stress thru singing my lungs out...hehes.. we went karaoke-ing for 3 freaking hours today.. Mai got a free coupon for the room..cool huh...so we just gotta pay for the drinks and the service charge.. N wen the three hours end.. kiter empat mcm budak giler tercarik carik toilet... mwahaha... Fun habes... Kiter melalak mcm budak2 giler... n yea.. lucy , mai and azmi do have great voices... LOL.. Shud karaoke again soon...

And yea here are some snap shots lah kn... nnti ni post macam semuer werds plak kan... hehes

Okie dokie... Guess i gtg... Chiaox

Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, October 09, 2009

Wednesday, October 7, 2009 ♥

Dear bloggy...

Am nervous for attachment... but I cant wait for it to come... cause I'm tired of waiting.. I want to get it done and over with.... just 4 more days left...

I have been thinking about my future... and what I want... N I've decided... I want my life the way I wanted it to be... Not to be ruled by someone else... One day... Imma be what I want to be... & own what I wanna own.. & live like how I wanna live...

Fear is my only obstacle.. I'm afraid of failure... But ppl cant get away frm it.. somehow through failure & through mistakes, ppl will learn frm them and improve themselves and be better... I want to be like that...So,I have to put away that fear.. & negative thoughts.... I gotta start thinking for myself.. and stop thinking what am I gonna do for someone else... Cause in order to do stuff for others.. U have to finish up what u have to do first...Do one thing at a tym..

Screaming my thoughts out @ Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Thursday, October 1, 2009 ♥

Suppose to meet Lucy today to cycle.. but unfortunately I can't make it....-__________-
Well... Next tym aites babe... Next tym if I have hols... Maybe I shudnt tell my mum.... Then I can go out every single day... LOL... well today is my brother's birthday..... N I am making his day a living hell... XDXD... im sorry brat... But bullying u is my passion :) Ever since u took away the attention I had before u were born.. u sick bastard!!!Y dont u just die!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhah..... Im just joking... lalalalalalalala... u are 11 now... try to grow up.... U shud learn how to be independant and stuff... and shudnt let ppl like me bully u around..... Learn to stand up for urself... And u gotta always study hard no matter.... It's a tough world... So u gotta Be Stronger can ?

anyways... IM STRESS RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!

I wanted to revise my stuff b4 goin for attachment... but seriously im in a soo lazy mood... NUthing can get in... well.... Imma do it today... at night.... and if at night I cant.... then tml... LOLs... Procrastinating as always.... Shida.. Shida.. wont u fucking change already.. Stop being an asshole...

Oh yea ... I think I've found someone in FB... yesterday I just made an FB account btw :) the story goes like this...Hmm last tym wen i was still in sec 1.. I use to talk to this guy on the phone... Like very often....Quite a funny guy... Never a moment of boredom...N definitely the things we talk about are not mushy stuff.... Cause at tt tym, to me, mushy stuff are just gross!! LOL.. ok..now it is still gross lah...but anyways..I wud always wait for him to call me and we can talk for hours... well not for hours (but that was the first tym i ever talk to a guy tt long or ever talk to a guy on the phone) he have to use a bloody payphone to call me and he will be putting 10 cents after 10 cents... until he runs out of 10 cents..... His mum dun like him talking to girls was his reason.. hmm wadever... Well maybe he turn gay by now... meh hu knows.... well all i can remember bout him is his name and his sec school..... Well maybe the reason tt i still can remember him cause his name is kinda cool... or I just have a good fucking memory... I think I saw him in facebook.... but i dunnoe whether it is him or not.. Meh.... he probably wont remember me.. pfft... u know guys and their short term memory....
LOLs... oh well... I always wanted to know how he look like.... hmm if its really him... then i can die happily knowing how he looks like...LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.... well... wadever...

~Adios~

Screaming my thoughts out @ Thursday, October 01, 2009