Friday, July 31, 2009 ♥
Another day ..Another FYP meeting.. another rehearsal..When will all this ends :(Tml I have to wear formal for this stupid presentation..pfft..Dragged Fidah along to present it with me... Cause she is my booster..Someone who boost up my confidence.. Someone who would be there for me... A friend tt will stand by me..... A true fren.....Like I've said... She is the reason I am still in this school..In this course.... May god bless her.. and give her a better life.... She had suffered enough..Pretty much life isn't really fair for her... Cheer ups Fidah.... I really wish we could graduate tgt..... I dont want to graduate alone with this stupid class...I want to be with u..... We have gone through shits tgt...I failed my pract test for the first attempt last monday...I felt miserable as fuck.... But people from other classes.. wen they fail.. they have their classmates to support them..But I only have Fidah...Nina was like asking me when we were waiting for Miss Susan for remedial class..She was saying " Why they ( ppl sitting outside the next door) can be so happy and cheerful even though they have failed?"... Nina, the answer is simple..Cause they have motivations from their classmates.. Their classmates pull them up whenever they feel down.. but not 0720... they will look down on you if u fail...They dont give a fuck bout u if u fail... When u fail.. then dont come to u and say.. "Its Gonna be alright"..or.. "Dont worry we will practice together again ok?"... but they just kepo2 at you ask why u fail .. what is your mistake...& blah blah blah.. until u feel like slapping their faces... Ive been in that situation..So I know.... Call themsleves FUTURE NURSES... hahaha.... I wanna laugh my lungs out till I puke and DIE..Just fuck them... Always a pain in the ass... NEVER have I felt joy being in tt class.... I have a problem again..On FYP presentation tml..The other 2 grp members are freakin useless...Should make them the fuckin leader... then they know the stress......My lappy is whacked...I need to ask favour from Lucy again....To borrow her lapy fr presentation...Pathetic huh... I just don't like asking favours and stuff.. But what to do....Im always a blacksheep.....Hope tml's presentation will be fine.... ^^ INsyaallah :)I thought I am happy already that I am free.... But why I keep thinking bout him...& Feel so miserable again :(But I cant turn back ...I just can't.... :(Gosh when can I be happy again....
Screaming my thoughts out @ Friday, July 31, 2009
