Wednesday, March 18, 2009 ♥
Went out with Fidah today... After a fucked up day at the ward.... It was fun.. even though I was tired.. It has been 3 weeks since we've met... we hugged like lesbos and talk like lil small giggly girls.... i kinda missed tt.. ya know....I have been serious towards everything... its time for me to chill.... We went to chinatown... cause she and her frens wanted to find a job at a restaurant at Chinatown.... So much for a restaurant... Its a fuck up one...N i have no more comment... Fidah didnt want to work there...N i definitely agree with her.... the restaurant was untidy,old and furthermore, it is place at a certain isolated corner... like wth.... then we went to vivo and chill and smoke.. not fidah but me..hees.. aites i know i have to stop.. but i cant... i am too stress....Wanted to meet Lucy.. but I was tooo exhausted and my legs were killing me... besides mum wud not be happy about me goin back home late....Sorry bby....Fidah told me she had a dream tt wendy and me wud talk again.....Fidah dear....I had that kinda dreams tonnes of time before and it feels real man..... As time past... I've realised that I cant expect my best fren to be perfect.. they are human being anyways...I am not a perfect fren too.... I sometimes offended my friends but they still except me for who I am...I am just being selfish.... But I know its kinda too late to fix things up...... i dunnoe how to make things right anymore..... I guess its the time for me to treasure those frens i had....I've always say that all I wanted to be is to be alone.... But to tell ya the truth... Sometimes i do feel scared to face everything by myself..... I need my love ones to be with me.... I gotta treasure everyone i love and not to take them for granted....This is wad i have got to sayN oh ya....My patient passed away today..It was expected......but still i dun expect to see her dead body during my shift N actually I didnt know she passed away till i go next to her body...Gosh..... My fault to go in...before listening to any report......Give me the heeby jeebies wen i stood by her and realised she's deadIt like just yesterday I nursed her...Talk to her as if she is concious...n now shes gonebut i think its best for her..At least its the end of her suffering..Rest well madam aites.....
Screaming my thoughts out @ Wednesday, March 18, 2009
