Tuesday, March 31, 2009 ♥
Just finished watchin ANTM... i know i shud be in bed but i dun really feel like sleeping.... Today was sort of panicky... Have this moment where i did an oral toilet for one of my patient... and as i was cleaning... she suddenly coughed like really badly.. and her pupil is like goin up... and I feel like as if she is goin to die or something.... I sat her up and pad her back... and quickly call the staff... Wen the staff gt there... phew... she is alive and breathing normally... maybe i panic for no reason... but... I dunnoe..Just got the feeling tt the patient goin to go off soon.... Just that I dont want her to die infront of me.... Please.... then i will get traumatised.....And definitely on the spot to quit this course once and for all.... god, pls help her... she had been tortured enough....She aint goin to get better anyways.... I guess... The family would not want to do an operation for her... saying stuff like she's old... and its kinda too late... and I heard she only left a month to live... All we can do right now... is just to provide her with comfort.... I just wish...I cud do more for her ya know.... Anyways tml start a brand new day in a male cubicle..... sianzzz....nvm..jia you!!!! 4 more days baby!!
Screaming my thoughts out @ Tuesday, March 31, 2009
